Brain on the mend...
Everything changes, and everything must, eventually change. So my mood turned back up from a period of being down. Everything changes, and this is the hope to which I am currently clinging.
Recently, I've been very positive. On Sunday, I met up with a friend I used to work with, who left to become a teacher. He told me about how things had changed since he quit and went into teaching. His life is so much more... "real", his accountability firm and the rewards more than pecuniary. He sees his wife, he does DIY and cultivates his garden...
After a horrible feeling last week, I'm in a good mood. I have an interview at eBay this Friday, which I am really looking forward to. I'm really eager to do well with this one, as it's actually a job I want to do! Who knows if I'll get beyond the first interview, but hey I've got as much chance as anyone I guess.
And I got offered a job from a software company, which was nice even though I don't want to take it. The job's offering a near 20% increase on my current salary, but would involve a whole lot more travelling and demand most of my time again. The confidence boost is good, though. It settles the mind, and stops me thinking too negatively.
I'm also getting active again - I played squash with my brother, and it was great. We played for a good hour, full speed, and I ran for every ball, lunged at every bounce, until I emerged sore and sweating from the court, my buttocks feeling firm like mutton...
I haven't been able to finish my retrospective of 1996-1999. It stalled. Why? because the more I dig into it, the more I realise that 1996 wasn't all the beauty of my nostalgia. Yeah, I did well at college, and I had a great time drinking and socialising, and I played football three times a week... but I also cheated on a really cool girl, I started a fight and got deservedly kicked, and I felt loss for the first time. The not-so-good things have played on my mind, and I'm not quite ready to delve so deeply into it. So you'll have to be patient, if it's interesting at all...
Recently, I've been very positive. On Sunday, I met up with a friend I used to work with, who left to become a teacher. He told me about how things had changed since he quit and went into teaching. His life is so much more... "real", his accountability firm and the rewards more than pecuniary. He sees his wife, he does DIY and cultivates his garden...
After a horrible feeling last week, I'm in a good mood. I have an interview at eBay this Friday, which I am really looking forward to. I'm really eager to do well with this one, as it's actually a job I want to do! Who knows if I'll get beyond the first interview, but hey I've got as much chance as anyone I guess.
And I got offered a job from a software company, which was nice even though I don't want to take it. The job's offering a near 20% increase on my current salary, but would involve a whole lot more travelling and demand most of my time again. The confidence boost is good, though. It settles the mind, and stops me thinking too negatively.
I'm also getting active again - I played squash with my brother, and it was great. We played for a good hour, full speed, and I ran for every ball, lunged at every bounce, until I emerged sore and sweating from the court, my buttocks feeling firm like mutton...
I haven't been able to finish my retrospective of 1996-1999. It stalled. Why? because the more I dig into it, the more I realise that 1996 wasn't all the beauty of my nostalgia. Yeah, I did well at college, and I had a great time drinking and socialising, and I played football three times a week... but I also cheated on a really cool girl, I started a fight and got deservedly kicked, and I felt loss for the first time. The not-so-good things have played on my mind, and I'm not quite ready to delve so deeply into it. So you'll have to be patient, if it's interesting at all...
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